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   ♥ Sh3 iis★Nyniie
A virgo baby with a family and friends.II welcome any haters to invade my already messed up lyfe till you're satisfy:)
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Friday, October 15, 2010 @ 9:41 PM  Something's missing & i'm not sure exactly what it is. Goshh, why did i end up being this pathetic. For those that can't wait to see me fall well here is your good news then. But i try not to give a shit & wasting my time thinking about it. for now ,i should be happy that get to maintain what i have now but can't help e s2upid feeling i have. Apart from that,I just have a feeling and uneasyness that something bad or worse is going to happen ahead me. Everyday its bugging. Even when i'm sleeping, i would wake up in e middle of e night shivering to myself. Its not about me or a guy or whatever bullshit. It scares me to even think of it. I thought things would go as per normal, i swear i sincerely hope to have it all going well. but these few days, slowly things starts to turn to a different direction. Suspicious talk make me even more worry. Let us have a normal life please. Im really begging you.Whoever it may be lyke stop it if you are actually doing it. Stop all of these. Im really scared. scared to think of any possible things to happen. Hate all you one but spare our life. Was wishing and hoping for a happy life a crime that make all of you against us? Was standing up for e truth's that bad that make you all hate us? You have never been thru it so you dont know how scared and hopeless one feels when worse things happen infront of you & you cant do anything to it. Having a nightmare about it is really not something good. Breaking into cold sweat and start shivering to myself bring myself cloder to my sister who is sleeping beside me because the nightmare had happen b4 in real life and to have the same dream make it so real that my heart beats faster. On e 9 october, when my sis overnight outside to celebrate her badae and my father had to stay somewhere else, & i have to sleep alone. My imagination runs wild. Im usualy a timid person. & thins thought make me even more scare. I couldnt sleep e whole night. It makes me tear up soo much. When my mom in e morning come to my room to check on me, then i get to sleep. after evrythings is fyne then i can at last sleep. Damn! its really very hard. All i ever want was a simple life with my family. To make them smile for evry tears that fall. To make them rest for evry sweat that they work hard with. To carry them up for every tyme they fall. I know thats the hardest thing to do & with others intefering with our happiness its even harder. The harder it gets the fear keeps on increasing. You make it harder with ur bullshit, whoever that person is. I wont hope for your fall but i wish the day will come when you will come here and beg for forgiveness.
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Sunday, September 26, 2010 @ 1:46 AM  When others make me feel useless, i couldnt help but think of you. Why cant i make e 1st move?Others think im crazy but try putting urself in my shoes. Ive told myself countless tyme but it didnt work. Happy arent you, with her by your side. Im happy for you but i cant lie how hard it is for me to let go. I cant move on & i must nt stuck to this. I just need sum1 that i can truly love and be loved to 4get you. You are e reason of my smile and my tears. I hope that will faster be changed because im really tired~ tire of holding on to something that are impossible to come.
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010 @ 7:16 PM     Ndp 2010 was awesome!(: |
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Wednesday, June 09, 2010 @ 11:33 PM I have never once in my 18 years of living felt the
fear lyke how i did yest. 100608, i mark this day to be the most unforgettable day ever. You ppl make our home ur target shot. She was on e verge of dying. I can nvr, will nvr forgive you ppl till my last breath. |
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Sunday, May 16, 2010 @ 12:32 AM I browse thru the pictures.
There. They were laughing and smiling. Like as tho they own the world. After all that they've done. Don't they feel sorry at all. Are they robots? With no heart. How am i suppose to feel nothing after watching it. With the fact that he are the opposite. I know he suffer in silence. I know it does affect his health. Because its shown in his face, his body. The hym that i know suddenly become different. He shrink, his smile&laughter fade away. He kept looking far thinking deep. What am i supposed to do? How far are you tormenting hym? please just let hym rest. i'm willing to continue it for hym. Just leave hym alone. How many tears you want hym&her shed. I will trade my evrything for them. Just please, get them away from all of this. For god sake ppl, he's in pain every single second. because of u no brain ppl. How can u believe those outsider rather than ur own flesh blood. You don't know a fucking thing that happens in our house. you dont fucking know what others have done to us. Then whats your brain for ? what's ur heart for then? Heve u ppl try to ask what happen. like are we ok? Is that hard to ask. is it that hard that you have to choose to believe others. You ppl have lived with hym. Stay with hym. Eat with hym. Go thru darkness with hym. You should have known hym better than any1 else in the world. If you don't, how do you think he will survive?? I really don't want to hate. trust me i don't. But this thing go way too far. From now on, just don't bother both hym&her. Don't need to start askin how they are coz i'll be the 1 doin that. Don't need to ask about them or even think bout them coz i promise i will do that. I will take care of them. i'll give my all to them. and if you ppl just won't stop, i'll have to make a move. Thinking about this i dont know whats the move or rather im scared to even think about it. Tho if 1 day they forgive you, trust me i won't do that. |
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Monday, April 26, 2010 @ 10:57 PM I told myself not to bother.
But still i did. I feel confused. Curious, at the same time. The more i deny it, the more i want to know the answer. But will he answer it? Its a 4 yrs story. Few people know. He doesn't know for sure, or did he? I just want to make sure before i leave my 4yrs of silence waiting. I just want a answer to my 5 words question that i kept for way too long. I didn't force hym to answer, thats why 4yrs past lyke that. There's some1 waiting for me, lyke how i waited for hym. Maybe how i felt now is what he felt too? But i want a specific answer. From his mouth. Is it stupid of mie? Will any of you laugh if i tell you my 1st love story? My 1st love story that begin with only a glance.2005. Only my heart start pumping hard, i don't know bout him. & so it go on, till today. Till the year of 2010. Some says i'm a fool, am i? Just 1 word a yes or a no. & i'll really leave. Leaving my foolishness that they say. But a wasted, its not. Some may understand but most will not. I promise i'll be going on away from all of this, after i just get the answer. I won't ask for hym to be mine, neither will i ask hym to sympathy me. Just a simple yes or know to assure this naive heart. |
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Thursday, April 15, 2010 @ 9:07 PM Gosh i HATE biology. I SWEAR i do!
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@ 9:05 PM Gosh i HATE biology. I SWEAR i do!
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